Monday, April 30, 2007

As for me....

As for me: last night I realized that while I’m here in Nashville I have to stop being an ass(again and again and again) and begin to try looking at how good I have it here and try being thankful/grateful. I don’t know why I believe this but I hold a belief that when I leave for college somehow everything will be different, like somehow all my angst and annoyance at the way my life is will somehow just magically disappear. If I can’t handle all of the things that bother me so much here, if my method of dealing with them is to run away then how is going to be any different in college?

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

computers

So, yesterday I went over to the apple store with almost $2,000 dollars in my bank account, with the intent to buy myself a macbook, a printer, applecare, and a nice little sleeve thing(nice for hot pockets) to protect my computer. I did it, I spent practically all my money, but this computer is something that I know is totally worth it. This computer will help me through college, and help me with life, music, and work. Apple computers work the way computers should work, they function like life, almost. If you think something should work a certain way, it probably does on an Apple.
So just know, Jeffrey has a sweet new computer peace.

P.S. her name is Ariel and we are madly in love.

Saturday, April 7, 2007

Feet

So we find ourselves in Holy Week (the holiest of all weeks, naturally) and last night I participated in the Maunday Thursday service, which is a service in which we take part in what Jesus did at the Passover before he died(called the "Last Supper" being exactly what the name implies), where he washes the feet of the place of least honour at the table, which was Peter whom he built his church on...very interesting stuff.
So this was my first time to really do the foot washing and not just watch it, and it was unbelievable, it was intimate, but not in a creepy stalkish way, in a way that meant, in a way that challenged me to try to live more like that all the time. That is not my point though, the most powerful part of the night for me was the fact that we all took off our shoes, we all went up to the foot washing stations (located in the front of the church) with our shoes off. I don't know about you, but for me, being barefoot is a very freeing thing. It's like, when I put on shoes I can pretend to be something else, but when you are exposed like that....you are you, just like you are at home, just like you are at your most intimate times, just like you were the day you were born.
It got me thinking about the first night of Lent when I cut off all my hair, and felt the amazing feeling of the wind blowing through my hair, and how it kept reminding me of the presence of God. I was thinking that if I were to, say, take off my shoes during church I would feel that same kind of thing, because after your feet have been confined in shoes for so long and you take them off there's that same freedom, just like my hair, how you can feel the air on your feet – like it's the first time you've ever felt it.

Kind of reminds of why churches sometimes use incense, to remind us of the presence of God through a tactile means.